The Final Post

Karangahape Rd, Auckland 2019 (Photo Credit: Christian Espinoza)

Thank you.

For the past four and a half months, you’ve read my ramblings as I etched my thoughts on here, one post at a time.

Looking back at them I see this has been a practice in sharing and reflecting, which developed into a daily ritual. Posting the blog created structure amongst the empty space I was in. It was a voice I didn’t know I had.

Now I feel it is time to say goodbye. I am grateful for anyone who read my blog, took away from it, and I can say I enjoyed every minute of it.

Go well and kill it in the game 🙂

Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving.”

– Albert Einstein

Go Forward, Move Ahead

Munich Airport, Germany 2018 (Photo Credit: Christian Espinoza)

If the world was one long moving walkway, it would seem very clear which way to go.

You could hop on, enjoy the sights around you, and head to where you need to go automatically. No stress, minimal effort, and in the right directions: forward.

If the moving walkway represented time, you would assume it was linear, that is, a straight line from A to B.

What if, instead of a moving walkway, you were presented with a carousel that went around and around, and up and down? Or a roller coaster that inched slowly upward and picked up speed and momentum on its way to the bottom? Maybe it’s a lake whose waves rippled out in all directions.

Whichever way you go, it’s important to pay attention. The journey is the experience of moving through time and space, without it we only have point A and point B.

Time is an illusion.

– Albert Einstein

Kamasi Washington

Kamasi Washington (Photo Credit: Steven Pisano, used under Creative Commons license)







Diversity is not something to be tolerated, it’s something to be celebrated

– Kamasi Washington, 2019 live at The Powerstation, Auckland NZ

We are Infinitely Small

Night over Doha, Qatar 2018 (photo credit: Christian Espinoza)

Discover the world.

Take chances, take risks.

Follow your instinct, trust yourself.

Create the environment for you to flourish.

Invite others to collaborate with you.

Laugh more and spend more time with friends.

Make time just for yourself.

All things you can find on a Hallmark greeting card, but maybe it’s all true. Try it and find out for yourself, and see if you’re life becomes more rewarding.

Higher Self

Photo from Susan Jeffer’s book, “feel the fear and do it anyway” (photo taken by Christian Espinoza)

This is my guide.

When I connect all the squares, I feel truly happy. I feel whole.

When I tip the balance one way, I loose myself and it’s hard to reconnect.

Try it for yourself, and be real.

It’s not easy to reach, but it’s worth all the stress and anguish in the end.


Arrowtown, New Zealand 2015 (Photo Credit: Christian Espinoza)

Seeking solitude, finding peace in a restful place. Letting go, or longing for a distant memory.

We are all looking for something out there, but often we forget that there’s nothing to find out there at all.

The remnants of the past come back as glimpses in the present. They hurt at times, but they also make us see ourselves better.

We live the stories we tell for ourselves, we see our reflection in others. We close our eyes when we don’t want to see what is in front of us.

Accepting yourself for better or worse is better than believing what is not real.

Start today, speak your truth.


Flying over Germany, 2018 (photo credit: Christian Espinoza)

Entire industries have devoted themselves to selling you an escape.

But what are we escaping from? What is it that we are desperately seeking somewhere else, in a distant, far off land, that we can’t get right where we are now? What exists out along the wild frontier?

The classic episodes of Jeopardy, when Alex Trebek would turn the mic over to Johnny Gilbert to announce the “great prizes” for the 2nd place contestant, and it would usually consist of a trip to Cancun for the whole family, or an exotic cruise around the Mediterranean. The getaway we all longed for.

The idea that a holiday could consist of an escape from your own reality was the stuff of science fiction, with movies like Total Recall and the very underrated Strange Days, the 1995 cult classic about an ex cop who sells other people’s life memories that you can experience in a virtual-reality-like way. The latter explores our darkest desires like voyeurism, addiction, violence, and sexual perversion.

What will our escape be like in the real future? Maybe implanted memories, vs long haul flights. You can be the serial killer or the hero cop, it’s your choice and you can have it for 3 easy payments. Or maybe it’s interplanetary travel?

Imagine the feeling of escape without the need for illicit drugs, or expensive flights, or implanted memories. Imagine an escape within. A re-connection with self.

On the surface our scenery may change but, like in Total Recall, there is always once thing that remains the same. “There is always the same old you”. Or, to quote Author Jon Kabat-Zinn, “Wherever you go, there you are”.

“If we hope to go anywhere or develop ourselves in any way, we can only step from where we are standing. If we don’t really know where we are standing… We may only go in circles…”

– Jon Kabat-Zinn